BINGUNG AH

throwing up

so here it goes,

I'm currently working part time in Harmony Land since last October,
a so-called Sanrio Theme Park, still in Oita Prefecture.

1. it starts in the morning, mostly at 8:30;
in which I should get up at 6, cook for my breakfast and lunch, take shower, rush for the first bus to get me to the train station, rushing for the train to get me to Hiji, then wait for another bus from Hiji Station to Harmony Land.

and by the time I get there, I think I only carry half of my life.

2. it takes 2 days of training, and in my case, 3
you know, being a character, or just call it clown, is not as easy as abc. this I'm telling you is the truth. it takes me 2 days for training, without getting any payment, except for the transportation fees. Since I was doing no good as clown, I made it for 3 days. 3 days without getting paid, yes.

So what I did was observing, writing reports, and yes just like school. Plus trying to get into the costumes which is so hot and heavy.

now you got the idea more or less.

3. When I finally get the job, finish the training, my bosses just keep complaining;
about my poses, or about the eye adjustment since the clown's eyes are different to mine, so ya, hmm I need to work my ass off for this adjustment thingy.

4. I finally get paid, on November 10th!
and it was wayy much more than I expected. considering I only worked once besides the training.

5. and now, 70% of the money are all gone;
not because I used it like crazy, I lost it. somewhere.

guess how it feels;
true.
it definitely feels like F*%&Hlifst@!?{K#

I melt to this

"Just close your eyes each loving day,
And know this feeling won't go away,
Every word I say is true,
this I promise you"
(This I Promise You-Nsync)

2010

for those who know me well,
for those who spend much time with me,
for those who see me every single day,
may not believe this thing that I'm feeling.

but yes,
I've been losing my self-confidence lately,
I've been trapped by things called failure,
all-year-long.
thus, I keep on cursing this 2010,

the worse thing is, that I don't know how to wake my self up.

but the good thing is that, 2010 is going to its end, so is my failure.

I wish

Birthday Wishes

Disney Dream Cruise For Bahama,
I'm crossing my fingers.
:)

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I'm a Super Proud Person

Remember how I feel about time that runs so fast?

Tracing me back to the old elementary school times,
when envying my friend's cool school bag, or
seeing them having the newest barbie collection was the only problem.

Now that I have lots of thing in mind,
family, good grades, money, time management, and the lovey-dovey thingy, too,
how I wish I could just open my desk drawer, hop in to a time machine to send me back
to at least 10 years ago.

Yet, I guess that's what gonna happen 10 years from now,
when jobs, crisis, having husband and kids freak me out,
I'll probably want to just go back to where I am.

Yesterday, was a big day for around 500 APU students,
they've finally graduated,
and yes, it includes a very special someone.

oh it's starting to sound a little cheesy, but,
yes it includes you (if you read this).

You're the one, who never really give up on your childish behaviors,
You're the one, who never give up on your dreams,
You're the one, who never really care of what people say about your interest,
You're the one, who has just passed the finish line of college life.
You're the one, who apparently has sketched your path ahead,
You've made it!

No outstanding thesis,
neither to graduate with an outstanding GPA needed,
you've done so much more than that.

you've made me believe
not to give up on my dreams, even though they seem to be impossible,
to keep having faith, even when hope begins to fade,
to believe in you, who believe in me.

And, whenever you feel like your dreams are running away,
or whenever you feel like losing hope,
or whenever you lost your confidence,
or whenever you stop to believe in every Disney thing,

do remember that,
there's someone who will not give up on hope,
because you've made her so.

Congratulations, Randy Remigius.
this whole college chapter may end,
but there's a new story coming as you turn on the page,
so..

All the best for your graduate school in Sweden, and everything.
You still have a long and beautiful journey to continue.




:)