I had a not-so good birthday eve.
It was a hard hard day cos I just had a hard influenza,
that my body couldn't work well for, some days.

then on Thursday, I decided to go to campus.
when I just got on the bus, I realized, I didn't bring my bus card with me,
which will cost 2x470 yen for going to school and coming back!

and, that was one.

I've decided to move my ass off to school to catch up on my favorite class,
but it turned up to be that class was only presentation by each coordinator.

yea, that was two

and it was snowing hard

that was three

the fourth?
I think my Japanese teacher, hates me!
she didn't even ask about my flu, and she kept looking at me as if I were the brainless-est student in the class. Well, ya I didn't hear that you were calling me for absence, and ya I was really sick though. Even when my classmate was asking something to me, and I didn't answer, I was the one she pointed at! arggh

and the fifth!
I supposed to dance last friday, so I did practicing before I got sick, and
I told the person in charge that I'd be absent only for two days because of flu, and that I can come on thursday for reherseal.
then what happened is that I went to the reherseal, and there I saw someone was dancing, replacing me! oh yea.

I was really pissed.

last, I haven't took my pill yet all day long, and I was in need of something to eat
but then when I got home, no food left! :(

thaaaaat, was a not-so-good night to turn 19, right?

if you could realize,
everything just pass us by,
people come, people go,
opportunities come, opportunities go,
but some of them, will just stay.

if I could ask something to stop,
if I could ask something to stay,
time please don't pass me by.

before I could notice its coming,
this year is coming to its end.

welcome to my all time favorite month
the most peaceful month of the year

wherever you go, the christmas songs will sing for you
color your heart with my the excitement of the coming of christmas.

"I don't want a lot for christmas, this is all I'm asking for,
I just wanna see my baby standing right outside my door,
I just want you for my own, more than you could ever know
make my wish come true "

again,

HAPPY DECEMBER EVERYONE

home

I'm living 7 hours apart from my parents and a place I'd like to call
home.

I'm living with people who speaks words I couldn't barely understand
on my surroundings, and yet I'm still giving my best effort to understand them.

I'm living in completely different weather and seasons from what I used to.
and I hate winter.

until the very second you read this, I'm still figuring out what brought me here.
I'm not keen on what so called manga and anime, or stuffs most of my friends envy me for being here.

day by day,
I learn so many things from so many people I met,
no.
I don't learn those complicated subjects I have to learn on campus,
neither I learn how to manage time, doing things alone, or this that other things.

other than that,
I learn how to

smile.
every morning I rush to class, I met cleaning stuffs whom aged even older than my mom working and saying konnichiwa.
every time I almost miss the bus cause I late 1-2 mins, and the bus driver even wait for me running to get on the bus
once I forgot to bring my bus card and I should've asked to pay 490 yen to get to campus, but the driver allowed me to just go for free

and today, I knew it was going to be rain, but I didn't bring umbrella for going on dinner, so ya I ended up running with a killing high heels from the bus and passing the red lights and suddenly a middle- aged woman knocked her car's door, I was thinking she was about to scold at me for I've just passed the red light, but then she opened the door and said
これ要らない傘使っていい and passed me her umbrella so I could go home safely.

I was so impressed.
and how could I express it? happy? :)

they put me comforts,
they put me stars,
they put me smile,
they basically made me belong here.
they made me have another place to be called

home.
:)